Hi,
Dunno if this is the best place to post this, I lost my Mum to a heart attack on 08/08/2021.
I just can't get my head around her not being here anymore, it was sudden, unexpected and a total shock. We never got to say goodbye to her, she's my Mum and has been around my whole life and i didn't get to say goodbye. My Dad found her collapsed downstairs just after 9:30 am and did cpr, her eyes were open but no signs of life so pretty sure she was already gone. We have worked out that he found her within a min or 2 at the most of her collapsing due to the fact that she read a whatsapp message at 9:33 am. The ambulance crew got her heart beating again, but she never breathed on her own or regained consciousness, so the last time my Dad saw her alive is after they had breakfast and she went downstairs to do stuff whilst he showered, so he didn't get to say goodbye either, after 48 years together he didn't get to say goodbye.
She was declared officially dead at 12:36 at Harlow hospital. I still can't belive this has happened and get tears in my eyes nearly everyday, just don't understand that I'm never going to see her again, it's hard to comprehend.
My vision of the future is they that would of both lived into their 90's and Dad probably would of died first because girls normally live longer, they were only a few months apart in age with him being slightly older.
I re watched the christmas 1982 video of us that I posted on here years ago and shes in it, and you can hear her voice, her voice hadn't changed since then.
Thanks if you read this, just wanted to tell someone about it, I'm broken and see no future at the moment.
She was 75 but looked 20 years younger.
Dunno if this is the best place to post this, I lost my Mum to a heart attack on 08/08/2021.
I just can't get my head around her not being here anymore, it was sudden, unexpected and a total shock. We never got to say goodbye to her, she's my Mum and has been around my whole life and i didn't get to say goodbye. My Dad found her collapsed downstairs just after 9:30 am and did cpr, her eyes were open but no signs of life so pretty sure she was already gone. We have worked out that he found her within a min or 2 at the most of her collapsing due to the fact that she read a whatsapp message at 9:33 am. The ambulance crew got her heart beating again, but she never breathed on her own or regained consciousness, so the last time my Dad saw her alive is after they had breakfast and she went downstairs to do stuff whilst he showered, so he didn't get to say goodbye either, after 48 years together he didn't get to say goodbye.
She was declared officially dead at 12:36 at Harlow hospital. I still can't belive this has happened and get tears in my eyes nearly everyday, just don't understand that I'm never going to see her again, it's hard to comprehend.
My vision of the future is they that would of both lived into their 90's and Dad probably would of died first because girls normally live longer, they were only a few months apart in age with him being slightly older.
I re watched the christmas 1982 video of us that I posted on here years ago and shes in it, and you can hear her voice, her voice hadn't changed since then.
Thanks if you read this, just wanted to tell someone about it, I'm broken and see no future at the moment.
She was 75 but looked 20 years younger.